I had my first experiance with a medium a few months ago. I tossed around the idea of seeing one, just to see what would happen. They've always facinated me, as a child I used to watch Sylvia Brown on The Montel Williams Show and every now and then I still watch The Long Island... Continue Reading →

Happy Holidays

The holiday season is upon us! Snow, cozy blankets, Christmas movies, comfort food and lights- I absolutely LOVE the holidays. least, I used to. My birthday happened to fall on Thanksgiving day this year so it was a bit of a double whammy for me. Normally on Thanksgiving Day, we'd stay in our pajamas... Continue Reading →

The Good Wife

As the one year mark of Sean's death quickly approaches, I am thinking more and more about how I hate being a widow. I miss being a wife. I didn't ask for this life. Grief was thrust upon me and my children so unexpectedly, so unwaivering. Recently, I was asked if I'd want things to... Continue Reading →

Are You Ok?

As I sit in the waiting room of my therapist's office while Luke finishes his appointment (I got waitlisted this week)I am looking positively mierable. A woman sitting across from me asks "Are you ok?" "Oh yeah, just tired" I say, fighting to hold back tears. Because I am not ok. I am tired, it's... Continue Reading →

Grief Personified

Unless you've been living under a rock, chances are you've probably already watched, or at least heard of Netflix's new horror thriller The Haunting of Hill House. Is it a remake? yes. Is it any good? Here are my thoughts; The Haunting of Hill House was a feels trip I was not prepared to take.... Continue Reading →

I Forgot

Yesterday I was supposed to bring Crockpot Mac & Cheese to a pot luck for work...but I forgot. The day before we we're supposed to hang out but I had to cancel last minute...because I forgot. Oh, I've told you that story before? I don't remember telling you.. I must have forgotten. and I'm so... Continue Reading →

Widowed and…Dating?

Let's talk about the giant, widowed, bat-shit crazy, black-veil-wearing elephant in the room---- Dating post loss. I want to make one thing very clear, when/if people date post loss varies, however, whether it be one week or fifty years- it is none of your business. Dating post loss is hard. After the marriage you thought... Continue Reading →


Sean's death makes me uncomfortable. Twice this week I have had to point out Sean's death to important people in our children's lives. The first was on Saturday when the coach at Luke's basketball practice announced the dad-son basketball game next week and I had to speak to him after practice and explain his absence... Continue Reading →

Children and Suicide

While I've been thinking about this post for a while, I'm just now getting around to writing it. On September 29th, 2018, myself, Luke, Gwendolyn, my mother-in-law and a friend participated in Detroit's Annual Out of The Darkness walk for suicide awareness. To see how many people were affected by suicide and mental illness was... Continue Reading →

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